Jealousy...

JEALOUSY ---typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.

>>>most of my friends say that selosa daw ako... Nagseselos daw ako kahit di naman dapat o wala naman dapat ikaSelos... Does it mean that you didn't trust the person??? That's why I posted this, how can i overcome this kung totoo man...

Book 2: The Queen's Confession by Victoria Holt

Victoria Holt took the life of Marie Antoinette and wrote this book as if she, herself, was the young French queen. The story begins with Marie marrying the king of France, Louis XVI. It then goes into detail about her wild spending habits which embittered the French people. The story is written as if she were thinking back and remembering every mistake she made and every possible thing she said that could have angered the French population. The story then tells of her affair with a young Lord, with whom she fell in love. When the French Revolution actually broke out in Paris, several of her closest friends were tortured and killed. Then the people executed their king and the story ends with Marie Antoinette in her cell actually writing the story that was just read. The story seems to be left with no ending because the young queen "writing" the story is then executed.

SOURCE: http://www.allreaders.com/Topics/info_1614.asp

>>I find this novel very nice, why??? simply because mas gusto ko yung type ng novel na talagang may nagnaNarrate (or in first person) and second yung friendship na nabuo ni Marie Antoinette (which is the main character) ay nagLast til her dull days even her relationship with her husband (Louis XVI)... Also, I was so touched with Marie Antoinette's mother (Queen Maria Teresa of Vienna), she really likes my mother in terms of loving and caring...
So, I think you must read this book, it's good!!! =)

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Highschool moments: Ako, si Puso at si Isip

Tuwing lalabas ako ng classroom namin, nakikita kitang malayo ang tingin mo. Minsan iniisip ko na lang na ako ang sinusundan mo ng tingin kahit na alam ko na napakakapal ng mukha ko...
Gusto ko itanong sa'yo:
"Bakit? Sino ba ang hinahanap mo? Yung taong mahal mo? Yung taong mahal mo na bawal kayo? Ako? Hindi ba ako pwede?"
Hanggang sa makalayo na ako at di ka na makita.
Sabi ng puso ko:
"Balikan mo, balikan mo... Baka nandoon pa sya, hinihintay ka bumalik..."
"Ang kapal mo naman!!! Gusto ka ba nun para hintayin ka?!! At saka kahit kailan di ka nya mamahalin, ni hindi mo nga mararamdaman ang pagmamahal nya e o kaya ang pansinin ka!!!"
Nakakalito! Di ko alam kung sino ang susundin mo, ang puso mo ba na nagsasabi na balikan mo o ang isip mo na nagsasabi ng totoo ngunit masakit.
Ayan na... Malapit ka na dumating... Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Minsan pinaplano ko na ang lahat at para hindi mapahiya sa sarili ko, sinusunod ko ito kahit masakit. Lilipat ako ng upuan kasi alam ko na alam nya na hindi ako nalipat ng upuan.
"Dyan ka na lang baka hanapin ka pa nya at baka magtaka pa sya kung bakit ka nandyan...", sabi ng puso ko.
"Ay, naku!!! Lumipat ka na lang kasi hindi naman ikaw ang tinitingnan nyan,feeling mo lang ikaw!!! Alalahanin mo, iba ang gusto nya, hindi ikaw!!!", sabi naman ng isip ko.
Syempre plano ko lumipat kaya lumipat na ako kahit masakit...
Pagkatapos ng klase, nagmamadali akong lumabas kasama ang kaibigan ko kasi alam ko na alam nya na titigil pa ako doon para makipagkwentuhan o para mag-ayos.
"Dito ka muna at batiin mo sya o kaya'y ngitian mo...", ang sabi ng puso ko.
"Lumabas ka na at masasaktan ka lang kasi di ka naman nya papansinin!!!", sabi ng isip ko.
Syempre lumabas na ako kahit masakit...
Minsan kapag nakakasalubong kita, napapaiwas na lang ako bigla lalo na kapag nakikita kitang nakangiti kaya tuwang tuwa ang isip ko habang naiyak ang puso ko.
Pagdating namin galing sa nakaraang subject, hinahanap na kita agad , ang puso ko ay umaasa na makikita kita, makakasalubong at mangingitian habang galit na galit at hindi umaasa ang isip ko...
Uwian na!!! Habang nasa jeep ako ay hirap akong ilibot ang aking mga mata kasi inuutusan ako ng puso ko na ilibot ito kasi maaaring makita kita, ngitian mo ako at sundan ako ng tingin hanggang sa makalayo. Ang isip ko naman ay tutol, baka daw kasi di mo ako makilala dahil malabo mata nya o kaya naman ay di pansinin...
Hanggang sa makarating na ako ng bahay at tumunog ang cellphone ko.
"Naku! Baka sya na yung nagtext!!!", sabi ng puso ko.
"Hindi sya yan at hinding hindi ka nya itetext kahit ano pa ang mangyari...", sabi ng isip ko.
Nalilito na ako at gulong gulo na pero isa lang ang hinihintay ko: kailan kaya magkakasundo ang puso at isip ko???

Book 1: Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden

'Memoirs of a Geisha' by Arthur Golden is an enchanting story which follows the life of a beautiful, young Japanese girl named Chiyo in her quest to become a geisha. The story begins in 1929 in Chiyo's birth town of Yoroido, a small fishing village on the Sea of Japan. Chiyo lives here until the age of nine, with her mother, father and sister Satsu in a little 'tipsy house' on the cliffs. Everything is normal is Chiyo's life, until one day she and her sister are bought by Mr Tanaka and taken by train to Kyoto. Once in Kyoto, Chiyo is sold to a renowned geisha house in Gion and is separated from her sister, who is later to be found working as a prostitute. To begin with Chiyo hates the idea of becoming a geisha and is tormented by Hatsumomo, the other geisha in the house. Chiyo rebels and tries to escape Gion with her sister but is unsuccessful, and as punishment she is told she can never be a geisha and must work as a maid instead. During this time she is constantly humiliated by Hatsumomo and looses touch with her only friend Pumpkin and her sister, as well as finding out that her parents are dead. Alone in the world and feeling as though she cannot carry on, Chiyo meets a kind man by the banks of the river who restores her faith in humanity and love. Spurred on by this man's warmth, Chiyo vows she will become a successful geisha and find this man again to repay him for his kindness. The story continues with Chiyo's mission to become a geisha, following her life through her training and apprenticeship, the auctioning of her virginity for a record price, the lavish parties she attends, and to her search for a 'Danna', a rich patron who will pay for her geisha lessons and her daily upkeep. Throughout this time Chiyo is searching for the man she was comforted by on the banks of the river and dreams of telling him how much he means to her. One day she finally meets the man again, but can she tell him how she feels when she finds out it is his best friend who finds her attractive and that the man she wants to be with doesn't even seem to notice her.The story is told through the eyes of Chiyo, who later becomes known as Sayuri when she becomes a geisha. Through her vivid descriptions and explanations of her life in Gion, the reader is transported to a faraway world and we learn about living the life of a geisha and the rigorous training and customs they must follow. There are many rules and procedures that must be followed in order to become a successful geisha, and the competition is fierce between the geisha. Just as Sayuri is settling into her new life as a geisha the Second World War strikes Japan and Sayuri finds she must reinvent herself once again.

SOURCE: http://www.dooyoo.co.uk/

>>a very inspiring novel!!! =)

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Poetry 1: Man in my dreams

I know exactly who he is

The contour of his body

He is the man in my dreams

The shape of his lips

The structure of his teeth

I know exactly who he is

The tone of his voice

The way he smiles

He is really the man in my dreams

The motion when he walks

The movement of his body

I know exactly who he is

The way he puts smile on my lips

The way he makes me laugh

He is the man in my dreams.

When will he notice my feelings?

When will he seal my soul with his kiss?

I know exactly who he is

He is the man in my dreams.

Poetry 2: Para sa'yo...

Una pa lang kitang makita

Di na alam ang kahihinatnan

Agad ay minahal na kita.

Kakaibang kislap sa mata

Puso ko'y agad nang tumibok

Nang una lang kitang makita.

Sa pagpikit ng aking mata

Ikaw pa rin ang nakikita

Talagang minahal na kita.

Katawan mong balingkinita

Tumatak na agad sa akin

Una pa lang kitang makita.

Ibang tingin ng iyong mata

Na tumagos sa 'king puso

Agad ay minahal na kita.

Ako man ay lunod sa alak

Ikaw pa rin ang nakatatak

Una pa lang kitang makita

Agad ay minahal na kita.